All your things are flowers and your flowers thrive. It’s summertime and we go out into the fields and we watch the trees move slow. The wind is painful. The clouds are vague. Your skin is bare and your skin is hot and we get near the trees so I can eat the trees. You say THESE THINGS DON’T FIT IN HERE. I’m rubbing bark on your skin to make you cold. You say IT’S A GODDAMN DESERT ALL THE TIME. We aren’t near a lake so we don’t drink the lake. We’re thirsty, we drive so many miles. I have a bag of your smallest things and all I think is FLAT. There’s desert everywhere. There’s your hair everywhere. I think FUCK YOUR UNDERWEAR. There’s shredded tire everywhere. I think FUCK YOUR HAIR. I am stuck out here with something sticky in my throat and when I throw all your flowers into the trash they become the clouds. You say I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY THERE IS ONLY ROAD. You’re in your underwear. There are not so many leaves. The trash is all empty boxes. The empty boxes never belonged here. Your underwear is not a flower. Your flowers are not all gone. I find a lake and I drink that lake. I find your hair and I keep your hair.
- The Trees Come Down
- You Know the Name
I am going to do something you can’t ever talk about. I am going to be really fucking quick. I am going to turn all these rocks into flowers, I am going to turn the flowers into circles and then, in the morning, when there is no fog, you will sit in the circle and you will say YOUR CIRCLES ARE NOT REALLY CIRCLES. You know how this must feel. I take you home and then you go to sleep. I take you home and there is lots of fog. I am yelling things and you are putting together the pieces of a dream. I say I WOULD HAVE YOUR HAIR A MESS. I do something that embarrasses you. My skin is hot so we use aloe and then we do something that you tell your friends all about. The fog is in the bathroom and on the mirror, the fog is in the hallway and the bedroom. I can’t see you but you’re pretty, I can’t see you but that’s okay.
You look like everyone I have ever seen. Your feet are all blistered. You walk like a warped floorboard and I say THE GEOMETRY IS ALL WRONG. You are all shampoo and shoulders. The water has just appeared. You are almost all panties. I don’t notice what your fingers are doing when you’re not talking loud enough. Your are all shampoo and shoulders and panties. I say THOSE SHOES ARE THE WRONG SHOES. I use your shampoo despite my shame. I don’t know how to touch you so I say I WANT TO TOUCH YOU. I don’t know how to speak to you so I say I AM GOING TO COUGH ALL RIGHT. I can’t seem to stop and still your hair is perfect. I tie ropes to the ceiling and I tie ropes to your ankles. I say I DO NOT WANT TO HURT. I say YOUR SOLES ARE SHARP. Your hair barely moves in the air. Your hair barely moves even though we’re moving really fucking fast. I’m trying to turn your circles into memories. I keep thinking BAMBOO BAMBOO BAMBOO. You look like no one I have ever seen. You walk away and I say YOU’RE SHIRT IS TOO DAMN LONG.
These hills are old. I pull years of string out of my throat. I rest my head against your belly. This is mostly your fault. The years are rivers. The rivers are old and they flow down between your shoulders. We thread like string between these hills. We fuck and we fray and we spit. I am worried. You say THESE HILLS WERE MADE FOR RIVER. You say THESE HILLS WERE MADE FOR GOATS. My string was made to make you warm but you are never warm. The windows are fogged, but not for the right reasons. This river runs alright. I say EVERYTHING IS MOSTLY YOURS. I say EVERYTHING IS MOSTLY YOUR FAULT. This river runs all night. We’re going to drown between these hills. We’re not going to sleep very well. You don’t say anything. The river flows from your mouth.
Oh the sun // oh the sea // oh the sun you see // my head is hurt // my head of hearts // my head of hurts // you cannot see // the sun // oh you cannot see the hurts // my heart is hurt // you see // the sea
The trees do not belong here. The dirt’s all wrong. You’re outside in a stranger’s car, wearing a stranger’s shorts. Your legs are not your legs and I’m barefoot, running after you. The palm trees are out of place. Your pigtails are the wrong color. I’m all hot and wet and quiet when you cross the street. And the tress move away from us. And there is a humid ringing. The wind carries some music. I don’t know why there’s an ocean. I cross the street and then there are no trees. I’m singing you a song. I’m drinking ocean water until I’m sick. You say THE PALM TREES DO NOT BELONG HERE. I am struck by a cinderblock. Your legs are still not your legs. My skin stings all over, my song is not the ocean. Your back is smooth. The palm trees do not belong here. Our backs are pressed together. Your hair is not your hair.